Time

This month has been filled with death; death of those whom never had the chance to live, and those pets that were old, and those that just was in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I cried earlier this morning..... I found out that my first cat I ever loved and owned passed away. Her name was Shiva. She would be 6yrs old. She lived a wonderful life though. She was full of joy and happiness. She was a wonderful kitty and made me smile and laugh. I loved her dearly. I must admit I haven't thought much about her as the days went. Yes, she would pop in my head and I would smile and hope she was doing well.
Frankly, I've tried to put the pass behind me for it brought back bad memories, mistakes that I made. People I hurt and lied too and I feel ashamed for doing those things. Of course, there where good moments; moments and times that made me who I am today. I've learned from my mistakes and do not plan on doing them again.
I can only move forward and make the best of things and do my best to live a clean, honest life.
Shiva was attacked by a coyote and that was the end of it. I only wish I was able to take her with me, but at the time I couldn't provide her with a home. I could barely provide a home for myself and take care of myself.
May she rest in peace, along with the rest of the souls that where lost this month.